Warrior

Who lives life like they are in the trenches now a days?

I had forgotten I am fighting a war. I have a loser enemy who doesn't know when to quit. Who plans out my destruction. Who's main goal in life is to separate me from my Father, and he takes this VERY seriously.

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that you may have life, and have it abundently.

God warns us of the thief's intentions. He comes to steal from us and whatever he can't steal he will try to get us to sacrifice it. To kill our dreams or dismiss our qualities. He comes to leave us barren and destroyed.

Ephesians 6:10-17

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.  For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Thankfully we are not unprepared. I am a warrior who wears the lightest most agile armour. Who wields an impenetrable shield and and a sword of quickened precise Rhema word. I am not just a protected lamb but a fierce Lioness who will put the thief into his place.

I will start with a lie that was so subtle and so ingrained I barely noticed it. 

"I can't"

I can't go to school right now, I'm a mom to small children.

I can't keep up with my chores, Im sleep deprived.

I can't speak up. I can't have authority. I can't have favour. I can't do it. 

I can't I can't I can't....

SAID WHO!?

I am an optimistic person, you know, the cup half full kind of person. If I was acting true to my nature "I can't" wouldn't be part of my vocabulary. That statement is not me. Nor is it what my God says about me, and about what I can do.

(these are out of the amplified Bible)

Philippians 4:13

I have strength for all things in christ who empowers me (I am ready for anything equal to anything through him who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ's sufficiency) 

Joshua 1:9

Have not I commanded you? Be strong, vigorous, and very courageous. Be not afraid, neither be dismayed, for the lord your God is with you wherever you go. 

Psalm 28:7

The lord is my strength and my impenetrable shield; my heart trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on him, and I am helped; therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song will I praise him. 

Isaiah 40:31 

But those who wait for the Lord (who expect, look for, and hope in him) shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up (close to god) as eagles (mount up to the sun); they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.

Who can't? not me. I can, I will and I'll conquer! Because I am not doing anything. God is doing it through me. I can do all things in christ, who strengthens me!

Me, Myself and God?

"yet I want your will be done, not mine," Luke 22:42

I feel like I haven't learned how important being a servant really is. I have been a christian all my life, and thus been told of all the wonderful things I get for free just because. I was taught love, forgiveness, and mercy. Until just recently though I had no holy awe and fear for my father. I wasn't acting like I had a "FATHER" I was acting like I had a friend who happened to be my dad. I did a lot of the typical "christian" things but I never did the jesus thing. I never worked for my church or for my fellow believers. I worked for myself. I wanted influence. I wanted to have people listen to what I have to say. I wanted to be fed. I didn't want to put anything back in. I wanted to take take take. 

So as I write this I am reaffirming my stand. Your will God, not mine. Yours. I want to walk with you. Accomplish your goals. I will make your will my own. 

praise god that i don't need to have a plan. He has one for me and I am exactly where I should be in that plan.

God bless you!

Amy

Who Am I?

Matt 6:33 but seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

I believe names are gifts we entrust to our children. My mom has a name book which not only had a meaning but had a scripture to go with the names. The scripture that was paired with my name is the one I wrote above. At first I didn't much care for the scripture. It seemed so obvious to a lifer Christian. Of course you seek the kingdom first... right? Well lets just say after quite a few wake up calls to how difficult that is I gave up my pride and went to god for help. I was struggling with life, with my purpose, and everything in-between. Im sure you can guess what God said to me, but I'll tell you anyways. He told me to seek him first, to stop seeking tasks, purposes, and rewards. To stop looking everywhere but to him, because I had become so accustom to his presence in my life I started to overlook it's influence. I would bypass the steps and rush foreword usually falling flat on my face. So now I make it a point to start my day seeking the kingdom and its direction. Whenever I start to lose my way God finds a way to bring up my namesake's verse and I am reminded what I must do before everything else.

Mark 1:10,11 Just as Jesus was coming up out of the water, he saw heaven being torn open and the spirit descending on him like a dove. And a voice came from heaven: "You are my Son(Daughter), whom I love; with you I am well pleased."

Nothing is harder than failing. I fall and stumble all the time in my walk. If fear of failure over takes me or shame, or self loathing. I go to the scripture above. I am a Daughter to the most high. He loves me, and I please him. Who I am, is pleasing to my God. Nothing is more freeing  or inspiring to me. My identity is rooted in that scripture.

Hebrews 4:15 For we do not have a high priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but One who has been tempted in all things as we are, yet without sin. Therefor let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

This last scripture is what saved me from the deepest darkest pits I have fallen into. Even when I failed my god still loved me, and I still pleased him, but I still felt like a failure when I struggled. Why couldn't I just overcome something leave it behind and never revisit it? Why would temptation rear it's ugly head at me even when I am pleasing to my God. I didn't understand and I would chastise myself constantly. Then that scripture came to me and it all made sense. I was treating temptation like sin. I would resist and wouldn't give into sin but the enemy tricked me into thinking that being tempted was a sin as well. I shied away from God and denied myself my namesake, and the grace of my birthright. To know that Jesus struggled as I struggle gave me the confidence to walk back into my father's pretences. To seek the kingdom first and allow myself the love of God again.

Whenever I feel lost, don't know who I am, or have been overcome with shame I reread these three scriptures. They embody my direction, my goals, and my identity. They save me and remind me of my inheritance.

God Bless
Amy

In the Beginning...

In the beginning God spoke, the holy spirit went into action, and everything, including ourselves was created in this manner. So when God speaks to me I try my best to be obedient and move into action.

Easier said than done, but I like the person God envisions me to be better than the person I envision me to be. So even if I stumble I can pick myself up and keep going because he knows I can.

I created this blog because I feel God wants me to write. When I read the bible, I am almost always overwhelmed with inspiration and prophetic insight. It is moving and inspiring, but also disheartning. I want to share these revelations. These breakthroughs. These paradigm shifts. I needed a platform to do so. To keep myself from feeling discouraged but also to realize that God gives authority and favour to those he imparts wisdom too I am writing now.

Whenever I tried to obtain a place to speak what God has spoken to me I always felt road blocked and gave up far to easily. I never trusted God to bring me the people who needed to hear what he wanted me to say. I thought I had to do all the work and when I failed it left me feeling defeated.

So In an attempt to pick myself up and try again I am starting this blog. God wouldn't be giving me things to say if he didn't see me saying them. So I am surrendering and giving up on trying to find listeners/readers.

This blog's advertisement is God's guidance. So if you found your way here let me assure you it was no accident and there is something here that you need.

I hope that you are blessed by God and feel his love as I pour out all he sends my way into this blog.

God Bless
Amy